Just when I think I'm doing so well without you, it all becomes so very difficult without. I watch everyone around me all in there own little family units and it just makes me miss ours all the more. I know you'd hate me feeling like this. I know you told me I just had to carry on without you, life goes on as you said. It's hard you're not a part of it anymore. I smile as much as I can, but behind that smile there's a lot of tears. Love you always and miss you so much Always your wife xxxx